i just want you to know...

when i clean the house, i suddenly saw 1 box that quite sometimes i did not open it. i look inside and i saw you. looking at the picture from when we first met, you gave me the most beautiful smile and i could never forget then i suddenly remember that night and i can't even protect you that night. when we hold our hands and our finger wraped around each other and i thought that time will never went away. you are my everything, everything to me.

i just want to you know that I've have been fighting to let you go, some days i still can make it through, but when it comes to the night, it never ends.every second i really wish you will come back to me. but still i have to say, i will do it all again just for you. so i just want you to know.i feel all the doors right in front of me are closing as i'm trying to move ahead. deep inside of me i wish it was me instead of you. my dreams are empty on the day you slipped away.

ever since i lost you i really feel like i lost myself, that one i can't fake it and i can't find someone else. so when i keep looking through those picture, i just want you to know that every second I've been fighting to let you, some days i still can make it through, but when it comes to the night, it never ends.every second i really wish you will come back to me. but still i have to say, i will do it all again just for you. so i just want you to know.. so please rest in peace my love.

uptown world or our world?

when she walk right in front of me, i knew that she is the one. the problem is, she 's from uptown and she is uptown girl. she'a always been living in her uptown world with uptown boys, society and of course her family. i bet she never meet a backstreet guys like me and i can bet her mom will never told her why she shouldn't. i thought i want to try my luck getting  y own uptown world and i can bet she want her own downtown man because if she don;t want downtown man, she would not be here, right?
so i am going to try to woo her with my best shot.

when we talk, i can feel that she want me, and then when she knows what she want from her time and when she makes up her mind i will definitely will be there for her. maybe she'll see me not so tough in front of her, because i'm already in love with her. when i keep looking at her, i feel that i have seen her in her uptown world. she did told me that she tired of her own world, her high class toys and everything including all those presents from uptown boys and now she has a choice.

girl, you know u can't afford to buy the pearls but maybe one day when i can, you will understand what kind of guys i will be, then i will be finally a winner. when she walks, she look so fine and when she start talking again, she suddendly say that she is mine!! i feel so shock. and i can't stop smile. i feel like a winner, she's uptown girl and she is my uptown girl. i am soo in love with this uptown girl.

if i let you go forever

day after day, time pass away and i just can't get you out of my mind. nobody knows not eeven my friend what i have hide inside of my heart. i always keep on searching and searching but i still can't find the right words and courage to let you know about my feeling towards you. i never felt so much love before. i keep thing about it, how to tell you about my feeling with the easiest way.

but if i let you go now, i will never know what would my life would be. can't hold you close to me and i keep saying will i ever see your smile and smiling back at me. so how will i know all that if i let oyu go. night after night, i keep hear what my heart keep saying, why can't this feeling just fade away?  why can't i say something everytime i see you? i feel that there is no one like that can speak to my heart straight, its just a shame that our world apart. i'm too shy to ask and i'm too proud to lose but sooner or later i am going to choose which one i will do. once againg, keep thinking about it, how to tell you about my feeling with easiest way.

but if i let you go now, i will never know what would my life would be. can't hold you close to me and i keep saying will i ever see your smile and smiling back at me. so how will i know all that if i let you go.

you raise me up

everytime when i'm feeling so down, even my heart feel so weary. when my heart is burden with all the troubles, here i sat still in the corner and wait in silence. then you came and sit right next to me. i feel that you raise me u so i feel i can stand on mountain and walk on stormy seas. i feel strong when i am on your shoulder. i feel you can raise me up to more that i can be.

everytime when i have a problem, you will always there to help me, you raise my spirit, my motivation and myself to be a better person. you always raise me up to get somewhere that i never imagine that i will be.. everything that i did, it is because of you. i will always love you and i really hope that you will always be there and keep me company till death do us apart.

i want it that way...

you are... my fire.. the one that i most desire.. so i ask you to believe, when i say that i want it that way. but i know that we are from 2 world apart from each other and because of that i can't reach to you heart, when you say that i want it that way. so tell why? ain't nothing like a heartache? tell me why? ain't nothing but a mistake so tell me why right now so that i don't want to hear you said, that you want it that way.

am i your fire? the one that you desire from me? yes i know what you trying to say but please to say it that you want it that way. so tell why? ain't nothing like a heartache? tell me why? ain't nothing but a mistake so tell me why right now so that i don't want to hear you said, that you want it that way. npw that can see that starting to fall apart from each other, from the way that we used to be girl. so i'm telling you no matter the distance, i really want you to know that deeo down inside of me towards you.

you are my fire, the one that i most desire in my life, so i want you to believe one more time, when i say that i ant it that way, babe...

as long as....

loneliness has always been a good friend to me until i met you. i feel that i'm leaving all my life in you hands. people around me keep saying i'm crazy and that i am blind to risk everthing in a sigle glance. i really curious how you keep me blind is still a mystery to me because i really can't get you out of my head. i don't care about you past, your history. all i want is you to be with me. i don't care who you are, where you are from, i don't care what you did, all i care is as long as you love me.

every little things that you have said and done, it feel like its deep within me. i really does not care if you are on the run because it really seem that we are meant to be.  i don't care who you are, where you are from, i don't care what you did, all i care is as long as you love me. i tried so hard to hide it so that no ones knows about it but i guest it really shows when i straight look into your eyes. what you did and where you are coming from, i really don't care at all. as long as you love me. that's all i ask.

so all i ask, as long as you love me, you will never dissapoint with me at all....

drowning in you..

i know that you make a mistake behind my back.. so i ask you not to pretend you are sorry because i know you are not. you also know that you use it to start to make me weak from the inside. all the time, you left me breathless every time that you walk away from me.but i just want to tell you that it's ok because i am not mad at you, because of you i survive.. so right now, you have to hear what i want to say.

i really can't imagine life without your love, every single time, every second. even forever really does not seem like long enogh for both of us. everytime i take a deep breath, i feel like i take you in with me, in my heart beats again, every single minute. baby i really can't help it because you keep me drowning... drowning in your love. every time i try to rise above, you swept me by your love, because baby i can't help it, i keep drowning in your love.

maybe i;m a drifter or maybe not, because i know all the safety precaution that i should take when i 'm free falling into your arms. i really don't need another lifeline because its really not for me. you are the ne that i need, you are the one that can save, seriously why can't you see that at all?

go on!! pull me under and cover me with all the dreams. you know that i can't resist your existence because literally you are the air that i rather breath.... every time i take a deep breath, i feel like i take you in with me, in my heart beats again, every single minute. baby i really can't help it because you keep me drowning... drowning in your love. every time i try to rise above, you swept me by your love, because baby i can't help it, i keep drowning in your love...

so babe. don't worry, i forgive you so don't leave me at all....

quit playing games.. please

its been 3 months since we met each other. last time we met, she ask for time out from our relationship. eaven in my heart, i see that you are not being true to me.. something you are not telling me at all. deep within my soul, i feel that everything around us is not like it used to be. i really wish that i can turn back time to do things right, but i think its impossible as it may seen, but i really wish i could babe.. just to make you happy.

quite playing games with my heart, before you tear us really apart. i really can't take it aanymore. i should have known from the start that this relationship is not going to work, but i still try because i care for you more that anything in this world.so please, quite playing games with my heart.

i live my life the way to keep you coming back and stay with me. everything i do, is for you but why is it that you still can't see it all?  i really wish that i can turn back time to make things right again so that we can be together like we used to be. the love that we have was so strong to be together, please don't let me hanging here and out forever. this is really not a right decision for both of us, so let's stop this tonight.

1 wish... 1 wish is all i ask... if i can turn back time, i will make everything right for both of us, time, feeling, relationship, life.. so please baby.. quite playing games with my heart and tell me the truth about your feeling towards me so that both of us can decide, whether we will continue or we end all of this tonight....

never gonna give you up

when i see the  girl that i want, i stumble. then i make myself brave and walk to her. i start by saying we are not a stranger to love. you know the rules and so do i. a commitment is what i have been thinking of and you won't get this from any other guy. the girl burst out of laugh and say, don't you think its abit cheesy to say like that? i keep saying, i just want to tell you how i feeling towards you, that i also want to make you understand as wel.l. i will never going to give you up. i will never going to let you down, never going to run around and desert you, i will try not to make you cry, never going say goodbye, i will try not going to tell a lieand hurt you, babe. both of us just laugh out loud and we talk quite a long time.

i tell the girl, i feel like we know each other for so long. your heart been aching but your shy to say it rite?. the girl just smile and try to hear again what i want to say. inside here, we both know it what's been going on. you and i both know the game, why not try to play it. but if you ask me how i'm feeling, don't tell me you're blind to see it through me.

we just keep talking, and talking for hours and finally that girl gives in to me. while holding her hands escorting her out from the restaurant, i keep saying to her, i will never going to give you up, i will never going let you down, never going to run around and desert you, babe. i will never going to make you cry, never  going to say good bye and never going to lie to you and hurt you.

5 years later, we still strong to each other and we keep telling our kids how i met you mother and she was an angel back then and she still my angel.

i will not say it!! maybe? love...

i have such a boring life. no social life, no interaction with other people and most important, no boyfriend. just me,myself and i. until one day, i saw him. he is not like any boys like the popular kid. he is popular, in his own category, more like a bad guy. if there's a price for rotten judgment, i guess i already won that. is it a right man for all the aggravation. i guess its going to ancient history, been there, done that. but who am i kidding?! my inner sense said. he's the earth n heaven for you, girl. why you need to hide all the feeling. he might be the one. i can see right through you that you like him very much.

but while i was walking, i keep saying to myself, no chance, no way! i won't say it. no... not in a million years. but i swoon, i sigh, and i keep denying, over and over again. but it still cliche, i won't say i'm in love. O.M.G I can't believe i said that. i thought my heart has learn its lesson regarding social life. but it still feel good when to start up. he has his own charm, style and gesture. but my head keep screaming " girl, get a grip! he's going to hurt you badly, unless you want to cry your heart out, then be my guest.

i should face it like grown-up, face it the reality, i am in love with him. but this scene won't play. nope, nope!! i will not say i'm in love with him. inner sense keep saying, "girl, stop being proud, its okay that you in love". then when he smile to his friend. then i made conclusion, well at least out loud, i won't say i'm in love. suddenly, he turns at you and he walk towards you, and say, "got some time??".

i will not say i'm in love.. maybe?!