i will not say it!! maybe? love...

i have such a boring life. no social life, no interaction with other people and most important, no boyfriend. just me,myself and i. until one day, i saw him. he is not like any boys like the popular kid. he is popular, in his own category, more like a bad guy. if there's a price for rotten judgment, i guess i already won that. is it a right man for all the aggravation. i guess its going to ancient history, been there, done that. but who am i kidding?! my inner sense said. he's the earth n heaven for you, girl. why you need to hide all the feeling. he might be the one. i can see right through you that you like him very much.

but while i was walking, i keep saying to myself, no chance, no way! i won't say it. no... not in a million years. but i swoon, i sigh, and i keep denying, over and over again. but it still cliche, i won't say i'm in love. O.M.G I can't believe i said that. i thought my heart has learn its lesson regarding social life. but it still feel good when to start up. he has his own charm, style and gesture. but my head keep screaming " girl, get a grip! he's going to hurt you badly, unless you want to cry your heart out, then be my guest.

i should face it like grown-up, face it the reality, i am in love with him. but this scene won't play. nope, nope!! i will not say i'm in love with him. inner sense keep saying, "girl, stop being proud, its okay that you in love". then when he smile to his friend. then i made conclusion, well at least out loud, i won't say i'm in love. suddenly, he turns at you and he walk towards you, and say, "got some time??".

i will not say i'm in love.. maybe?!